A New India

After a 31 hour journey, I made it to Delhi in one piece on December 18th 2010. Its been 4 years since I've been here and I've noticed a difference; it's cleaner. Apparently the city did a major 'clean-up' for the 2010 Commonwealth games which were held here in October. The 30 minute drive from the Indira Gandhi airport to my Aunt's house in Gurgaon was stray-cow-free and I noticed a whole lot more corporate buildings along the Delhi skyline. I always find it funny seeing a big shinning building that says Panasonic or Sony on it in India because you know the people in that building are taking calls from folks like us in North America when we call 'customer service'. However some things remain the same; the severe poverty. It breaks my heart everytime seeing little barefoot children covered in dusty dirt begging for change while a Mercedes Benz goes zipping by. I have no idea how I am going to help eliminate the severe poverty here but I know one day I will be back again for much different reasons.

Changing My Mind

I recently finished reading Changing My Mind by Margaret Trudeau. It was a really captivating story and I was inspired and a little changed by it. I never knew those details about the one time wife of Pierre Trudeau. It take a lot of courage to open up and talk so candidly about one's mental illness. She did a great job. Hats off to Margaret Trudeau.

 

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2 week positivity challenge

I'm challenging myself to thinking only positive thoughts for the next 2 weeks and to eliminate or convert any negative thought, comment, action, or person in my life into a positive one. I'm beginning today. Let's see how I do. 14 more days to go...

Weekend Getaway

So after weeks of going stir crazy and being snappy with everyone, I decided I needed to get away. So here I am sitting in a 2 star hotel in downtown Montreal....OMG i just flipped the channel and Beautiful Monster is on, the song by...shit who's it by again? I've had too much red wine. I must dance!
That was fun:) I've got the telly on (don't know why I'm talking in British but it must be the bottle of Woodbridge mondavi cab sauv I'm polishing off) and I'm getting annoyed at how little English TV there is in Montreal. Who am I kidding, I'm in a french city, what do I expect?
This was a trip to get away, to clear my head, to figure out what's been bugging me. What I've realized is, although trips like this can help, they don't necessarily 'solve' the issues that are brewing deep inside. I think I know what's bugging me and it's frustrating that I can't just accept and enjoy the faze I'm in right now. I'm constantly looking ahead, wondering what next.

Ajay & Maya's wedding in NY

Wow best wedding ever! I was seriously blown away at how beautiful and organized the wedding was. Ajay was an adorable groom and Maya was a gorgeous bride. It was great reuniting with fellow Woodstockers and dancing up a storm!

Been there done that...

Went to Lobby on Dalhousie st. in Ottawa and all i got to same is same old, same old...I'm definatley not a club person. It was cool in highschool but now I enjoy NOT having to yell over the blaring music to ask "how are you?" or perhaps I'm just getting old.

Ottawa Nightlife?

I haven't been out drinking and clubbing in Ottawa since I've been here. I'm not expecting much; I know that's not exaclty being open minded but I guess after spending two weeks in Toronto recently, I'm still thinking about all the options you get when you're in a big city. What can I say, I'm a city gal.
It's tough when you know in the bottom of your gut who you're suppose to be and what you're supposed to be but life throws you curveballs and obstacles prevent you from getting to where you need to be. And then you quiet the little voice inside you and pat it down enough so you can get through your day which turns into weeks and months.

2 months in Ottawa

Another weekend in Ottawa goes by. This one not so lame as the last. I actually got out. I went to a pub, Fat Tuesdays, with my sister and brother-in-law. It was very loud and crowded in not the right way;) Not my first choice to spend my Saturday night but then again it's not like I had many options.
Still trying to get used to living in my hometown. Going alright. Yes indeed.

Oscar night in Ottawa

Beautiful faces, beautiful dresses, glitz and glam and so much more. I think I know why I love Sandra Bullock. It's because it's exactly the way I want to conduct myself in Hollywood when I'm a famous actress too. That's right, I too will be a famous actress, no doubt in my mind...OK so maybe there is a bit of a doubt. Why is it so hard to believe.
I'm drinking white wine while watching the Oscars at my parents home. God, I'm 29 and i'm back home with the folks. Seriously I need to find my own place, my own mind, my own life, my own dreams......

In Ottawa

5th day in Ottawa going on my 6th. I'm alive! I have not drowned in the snow nor have I wanted to kill myself! I'm doing well, I would say. Actually the weather has been tolerable and being in the same city in a different state of mind, has really altered my frame of reference. Let's see how long this lasts :)

2 days until I'm in Ottawa

Wow I'm moving to Ottawa. I'm not sure if it's completely hit me yet. I thought I would be in Toronto for at least five more years before I moved on from here. I never thought moving forward would be back to my home town. So many mixed emotions, I don't know what I am feeling these days. Anxiety is one of them though.

I have two new nephews and a niece and that's really exciting and amazing. I wish I could be around when they get home but I'll just have to come up on weekends to see them. I got to hold Jaiden and Kailen and that was so amazing. They are so tiny but doing well:)

No bloke. It's over. I learnt a lot though about myself and about what I do and don't want in the next guy I date.

11 Days until I start the new job

Time is flying by. I am getting very anxious about starting my new job. I just keep thinking, will I be able to keep up? I guess there's only one way to find out.
My mind has been wandering lately. Wandering to places it hasn't in a very long time...scary...
I'm trying to fit seeing all the friends, packing, searching for an apartment in Ottawa and a much needed vacation all in 11 days. It's possible right?
The bloke is pretty much non existent in my life. I haven't seen him for 2 weeks and we've texted a few times and only talked on the phone once. I need more. I'm too good for half assing it. At least I have the sense to realize I'm worth more - more than just a casual fling. I'm worth a crap load more!
I saw Time Traveler's Wife last night and I really enjoyed it but all I could think about was, 'I really wish i find a love like that.' and 'How cool would it be to time travel.'

23 Days to go

No new adventures really. However I went to Pub on Parliament (I actual think that's the name of the pub) with my cousin and I loved it. It's a cute, quaint little place with great food.

30 DAYS TO GO....THE ADVENTURES BEGIN

OK so I have exactly one month, and maybe a few days, before I leave Toronto for Ottawa so I am going to try as many interesting Torontonian things I possibly can for a month and blog about my adventures.
Let's start with last night. I went to The London Tap House on Adelaide St. for a friend/co-worker's birthday party. I don't think I've really felt the weight of my 29 years until last night. Jeez i must really be getting old because the whole drunken club thing is very unappealing to me.
Hopefully my next adventure will be a bit more to my liking....TO BE CONTINUED

String of random thoughts

I really like a boy.
I wonder if the world will soon forget about Haiti? How long will media attention and international support last?
This winter is so strange. There's no snow and it rained today. It feels like Vancouver.
Speaking of Vancouver, I don't really care all that much for the Olympics.
I love tostitos with ketchup.

A bloke

I never really thought I would gab about a boy on my blog but this guy is not any boy. He makes me giddy. Yes I'm actually giddy when I think or talk about him and I've only gone on two dates with him. He's just so different than anyone I have ever met. He's strange, interesting, polite in an old fashion sense and not to mention very cute. However I wish I had met him sooner. I'm moving to Ottawa soon and in all of my 5 years of living in Toronto it's only in the last month that I have met someone who I would like to spend a whole lot more time with. Why is life so complicated?

HAITI

A sigh, a twinge of pain and a heavy heart for a destroyed nation...

The Beach :)

The wall is done except for a few details. Smile, joy....

New Year, New Life?

I rang in 2010 at Hemingway’s in Yorkville with a friend. There was a countdown, midnight struck and we clanged glasses. I took a sip of my green apple martini and thought now what?
I’m so cynical.
New Year’s resolutions:

1. Don’t be so cynical
2. Don’t be so pessimistic
3. Do 3 essential yoga exercises mommie taught me
4. Do more weight lifting

Let’s see which ones I stick to. So far I have not followed through on any of them. Welcome to 2010...