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August 23

My home - my room's on the 2nd floor

How do I begin to explain my experience here at the Ashram thus far? There’s really no NEED for explanations but when my parents ask me why I’m still at the Ashram and ‘what is it about it you like so much?’ I’m at loss for the accurate words that describe exactly what I’m feeling, going through. Would they understand if I said that it feels like my whole life has been preparing me for this moment, this place? That my soul has never felt so at peace, so calm, connected? That I finally, after 16 years of self-loathing, love being alive? I’m not sure they understand when I tell them I’m healing. I’m not sure even I can intellectually make sense of some of the experiences I’m having here. And that’s just it – what I’m going through here can’t be reduced to a logical thought. I feel like the part of me that always felt like something was missing , that big hole inside me, is now being filled, with the Divine’s energy – my source. My consciousness is growing and I’m just beginning to understand that all my preconceived notions and learnt ideals about how life works were laden with ignorant knowledge. I’m learning a little more truth about life and myself every day. The old me – negative, sceptical, cynical, judgmental – is withering away and the hopeful, idealistic, positive child I used to be is awakening. My eyes are finally opening and I believe in things of magic and miracles. In fact they are truths, not silly little ideals only children believe in. What seemed impossible before is only a possibility waiting to manifest.  The truth is so vast and can’t be understood by the human mind; however, what we can understand is that there’s a greater plan and only by listening to your soul will you be guided towards your own truth which in return will feed the whole system. 

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