I don't know about this whole blog thing....

So it's been a month since my last posting, ok so not a month exactly, and I'm beginning to wonder why I even have a blog. I mean I hardly post anything. Anyway the beach is almost done, just the palm trees left and that's the hardest part. I've been so busy with work this week I haven't had a chance to work on the wall but I'm really grateful for the extra shifts. I NEED the money.
How long am I going to do this for? You know the whole living on basics because I'm pursuing my acting dream? It's frustrating when I see others out there who are getting casted when I KNOW my acting is better than theirs! Is there room for me in this acting world? What is it about me that is not castable? Arg....How long do I do this for? Until I'm old and wrinkly? Hmmmmmmmmmm........Anyone have an answer?????? Hello? Anyone even out there??????? God?????? hehehe