Not good at blogging

seriously I am not much of blogger but yet I have a blog. Why do we feel the need to share to the world our deepest and most inner thoughts? I mean why on facebook do we all feel the need to update our status. I mean who gives a shit? I don't know. Maybe someone gives a shit or we are so desperately hoping someone gives a shit. I fall into that category. I am desperately searching for someone to give a shit. Hoping someone will contact me and say 'Wow you're an amazing human.' Why can I not feel that on my own? I am trying though. Must give myself credit for trying. I'm half way through yet another self-help book called Perfect Love;Imperfect Relationships by John Welwood. It's all about loving yourself. I guess I gotta do the exercises before I start loving myself. However I am in a much better position now than I was years ago, actually even last year. I am not gonna let the darkness eat me up again. Nope, never again.