Enough Already

Feb. 17, 2020

I got some good news today. First thoughts ‘Pop will love to hear about this!’ He would have. 

I break...again. 

Enough already Pop just come back!! 

You can’t be gone. We can’t just live without you. You ARE our life. You always have been. Mom needs you. You’ve been her reason...how could you just leave? 

I hear myself. I hear my words and I know it’s so selfish, childish...ridiculous. But I can’t help being angry. I don’t even know who or what I’m angry at. I wanna scream at the universe. I wanna understand more. I wanna know where he is, who he is, what he is...what this life is! But I’m too angry right now. I’m just sad and pissed. And I will be until...I’m not.